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Long time haven posted, i just realized that whenever i feel like blogging, its always after something big that happened. My 21st Birthday, my exchange program...
Yup, everyone....its over...i guess no one knows about it either....how can anyone know what he or she wants..."you may think that he/she is the one for you but end up realizing that he/she is not the one, you may also think that he/she is not the one for you but you may never know until you try."
Had just read the website on dating and relationship, it helps to explain why spark of chemistry disappears over time and its for a good cause....
http://msn.match.com/msn/article.aspx?articleid=6685&menuid=6&lid=428
Mystery #5: Why does the spark of chemistry disappear over time?
No longer tearing each other’s clothes off every time you meet? You might fear your love is dying, but it’s actually just transforming into something you can handle for the long run. “The calming of passion in a relationship is actually a survival trait,” says Dr. Fisher. “When you’re courting, you do things that are very taxing to your mind and body: You talk until dawn, you forget to go to work, you forget to call your friends, you forget to feed the dog, you dash off and spend all of your money in Paris. If you were to live the next twenty years in that state, you’d certainly die of exhaustion!” Settling into a calmer place can, you see, be a very good thing.
On another painful note, just had my wisdom tooth surgery, the experience was pretty freaky. Considering that this is my first operation and i have to walk into the operating theatre by myself was no consolation at all. I was sad too. I was thinking if things had worked out, what would had happened. I guess we always do that when we are feeling low. When i woke up, i was alone. I was wheeled back to the ward. There was no one except me. When i look around, everyone had visitors. Mum, bf, relatives... what about me>? NO ONE...yup..my dad came after awhile to pick me up but the most crucial time was spend by myself. I know my friends would have tell me to be strong and independent. But i hate it. Yes, everyone must be strong and independent. I agreed... But every now and then, you need support. I am sure if they have been in the same position as me, they would have felt the same way.
I have to really think carefully on what i really want in my life. I tot i am better at choosing...but..no...still the same....
Past week been staying at home for soft diet, din hurt that much..."thanks to painkillers"...but now it kinda of hurt.... think it will be better after awhile...
So what else is there to update? hmm...
Besides losing weight due to operation, sadness and angriness due to recent events, happiness due to family and friends... I have been thinking about school...career....
I am abit worried whether i have chose the correct subjects for my specialisation. I find it quite useless for what i want to do in my future job. I want to learn more programming, skills for different software, more practical stuff...rather den something that i will not use at all. But Can't turn back now. Its decided and can't be changed.
Personally, i hate weekends. Why? I feel like i am in my own world on weekends. Its nice to feel that way once in awhile. But no sms, replys from frenz...that's just sad...
Maybe i should just leave this place.
Pondering...
Should that be my goal?
Yup, everyone....its over...i guess no one knows about it either....how can anyone know what he or she wants..."you may think that he/she is the one for you but end up realizing that he/she is not the one, you may also think that he/she is not the one for you but you may never know until you try."
Had just read the website on dating and relationship, it helps to explain why spark of chemistry disappears over time and its for a good cause....
http://msn.match.com/msn/article.aspx?articleid=6685&menuid=6&lid=428
Mystery #5: Why does the spark of chemistry disappear over time?
No longer tearing each other’s clothes off every time you meet? You might fear your love is dying, but it’s actually just transforming into something you can handle for the long run. “The calming of passion in a relationship is actually a survival trait,” says Dr. Fisher. “When you’re courting, you do things that are very taxing to your mind and body: You talk until dawn, you forget to go to work, you forget to call your friends, you forget to feed the dog, you dash off and spend all of your money in Paris. If you were to live the next twenty years in that state, you’d certainly die of exhaustion!” Settling into a calmer place can, you see, be a very good thing.
On another painful note, just had my wisdom tooth surgery, the experience was pretty freaky. Considering that this is my first operation and i have to walk into the operating theatre by myself was no consolation at all. I was sad too. I was thinking if things had worked out, what would had happened. I guess we always do that when we are feeling low. When i woke up, i was alone. I was wheeled back to the ward. There was no one except me. When i look around, everyone had visitors. Mum, bf, relatives... what about me>? NO ONE...yup..my dad came after awhile to pick me up but the most crucial time was spend by myself. I know my friends would have tell me to be strong and independent. But i hate it. Yes, everyone must be strong and independent. I agreed... But every now and then, you need support. I am sure if they have been in the same position as me, they would have felt the same way.
I have to really think carefully on what i really want in my life. I tot i am better at choosing...but..no...still the same....
Past week been staying at home for soft diet, din hurt that much..."thanks to painkillers"...but now it kinda of hurt.... think it will be better after awhile...
So what else is there to update? hmm...
Besides losing weight due to operation, sadness and angriness due to recent events, happiness due to family and friends... I have been thinking about school...career....
I am abit worried whether i have chose the correct subjects for my specialisation. I find it quite useless for what i want to do in my future job. I want to learn more programming, skills for different software, more practical stuff...rather den something that i will not use at all. But Can't turn back now. Its decided and can't be changed.
Personally, i hate weekends. Why? I feel like i am in my own world on weekends. Its nice to feel that way once in awhile. But no sms, replys from frenz...that's just sad...
Maybe i should just leave this place.
Pondering...
Should that be my goal?
posted by eILeEn at 8:24 AM
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